Scratches On My Skin.

I feel like I'm living in two different sides of myself. It's sort of like I have two different types of emotions. The happys and sads, I feel with my school and friends life and then the deeper emotions that I feel on more of a personal level. It's like the pain I feel on the school and friends side barely scratches the surface of my skin. But the pain I feel personally lives deep down under my skin. This personal level consists of something bigger than me. I don't know if it's love or if it's just the grief of missing someone. But I do know that it's there. And it's been there since a few summers ago. I know that it changed me. And I know that the emotions I feel because of it are so much deeper rooted than those of teenage dissapointments and adolescent excitement. Everyday I dive into that world called youth and I try my hardest to distract myself from what lies underneath my skin. I guess it's just spare time like this when I really start to think and miss. But I'm going to stop myself before I get too far(and too sappy).

Until the future this has been a girl who doesn't feel like wishing tonight.