Smalltalk and Idle Gossip

So I guess i realized why I'm writing this blog now. It's mostly because of fear i guess. The place that I live in is filled with drama and stupidity and naivity(highschool). And I absolutly refuse to get dragged into a world of shallow words that are spoken despite later regrets. The big picture. That's what I try to see everyday. Not what other kids are fighting about or about what to wear but more about things that are going to effect the rest of my life. Sometimes I feel like there is this complete, "grown up", and far away world passing me by at 100 miles per hour. And there's nothing I can do to stop it. Instead I have to sit through bleak conversations made up of smalltalk and idle gossip. But back to that fear that I have(please take note that I get off subject extremely easily). I'm desperatly afraid that one day I'll wake up and all that I will care about will be friends and my social life. Stupid little things that make up a whole highschool full of oblivious students to what else is out there. I'm not saying that everyone I know is like this but from my perspective it seems like it. I'm writing this blog to stay true to myself and to keep my "big picture" thoughts very much in tact. I just don't want to lose any of the depth that I keep inside me. That's all really.

Until I get back to this box with all my thoughts, this has been a girl who wishes she could speak just as she thought at 2:22 in the morning.